Have you felt like the easier X to find on an equation? Have you felt that it was impossible to find the Y? Have you found an equation impossible to solve? But still you keep trying? Join the club ...
I feel disgusted with myself. I'm so bored, I have nothing to make someone love me, in fact, I can not make someone love me ... It's missing content, it's missing physical, it's missing everything ...
How can someone be so unattractive? Incidentally, how can I be so uninteresting?
Being honest I just want to be loved, I want someone to do for me what I have done for everybody, I want to be cherished, I want to be spoiled, I want to be surprised ... But what reason someone would have to do that for me? After all I do not deserve this.